| About Me... |
| My Name is Carlin. Here are a few facts about me. First and foremost, in case you hadn't guessed it by now, I'm gay. SURPRISE!!! I'm NOW located in New York City, New York after living in St. Louis, Missouri on the banks of the Mighty Mississippi River from 1984 until December, 2001. I was born 11/1954 (You do the math!!), but I usually get guessed at being around 35 to 40 because I don't look it and I don't act it! As you can see from the picture above, I'm a big guy, 6'1" tall with a hairy chest and a moustache or goatee. (Did have a beard, but in New York, my goatee comes and goes with the seasons!!) I was born and raised in Illinois in a small town about an hour away from St. Louis in a rural farming community. As a result, I would say I have a different outlook on things due to my small town values. I care about people! I got married (yeah, to a woman) at age 19 (HEY!! In 'Smalltown, Illinois', getting married and being 'procreative' was 'the thing' to do...) and I remained in that confused state for 21 years until coming out of my closet in 1994 as I was approaching my 40th birthday. I do have 2 daughters and a grandson (see below), and they have, for the most part, accepted my gay status very well as I do! I'm proud to be gay. It's nothing to be ashamed of. It's not a decision anyone would make if given the chance to do so. So, if you are straight and reading this, please accept us for who we are, without worrying about what we are! I believe God does, and if He can, you should be able to also! YES, I'm one of those oxymorons known as a "Gay Christian"... although I wouldn't say I'm as "religious" as I used to be... but God's still one of my best friends and we talk regularly. I'm 6'1" tall, with a 48" waist, wavy S&P hair & piercing brown eyes, a hairy chest, moustache or goatee, "larger than average" endowment (pic is elsewhere!), and consider myself a versatile top (about 80% top-20 % bottom). I'm a romantic, but I'm also into some of the KINKIER sides of GaySex... but just for fun.. nothing that causes TOO much pain!! Specifically, Dom/Sub, light bondage, some watersports, spanking, shaving, sex involving food ;-) (like whipped cream, chocolate, honey, etc.), electro-stimulation, and role playing. I am seeking my Mr. Right for a long term relationship. He should be younger and smaller than me, and versatile also. Whether he's a CUB or a TWINK doesn't matter to me... Just someone who can and will make me feel loved! I'm very tired of waking up alone after 21 years of having someone to sleep with every night! I HATE sleeping in that BIG lonely bed every night!!! |
DYLAN, MY GRANDSON
My oldest daughter decided she
wanted to make me a Grandfather very
prematurely... so this is my Grandson,
Dylan Christopher, born on October 15,
1997 and he REALLY loves his "Pa-pa"
He's quite a boy... full of energy, but
since I moved to New York City, he
misses his PA-PA Langley very much!!
And I miss him and my daughters too...
My oldest daughter decided she
wanted to make me a Grandfather very
prematurely... so this is my Grandson,
Dylan Christopher, born on October 15,
1997 and he REALLY loves his "Pa-pa"
He's quite a boy... full of energy, but
since I moved to New York City, he
misses his PA-PA Langley very much!!
And I miss him and my daughters too...
| My Daughters, Erinn & Claire I suppose SOMETHING good had to come out of 21 years of being married, and that would be my daughters, shown above! Erinn is 31 as I'm writing this (11/08) and Claire is 27. They both still live in the St Louis area and I usually like to see them about once or twice a year, although the current state of the economy is making that very difficult! Erinn accepts and supports my being gay, but Claire has had problems dealing with it since I came out when she was 13, mostly due to influences from her dear mother and my brother.... but we won't get started on THAT!!! I figure someday, she'll either come around, or she may decide to no longer be part of my life. I'd hate for that to happen, but it wouldn't surprise me. Father's Day I don't hear from her or for birthdays or holidays. It hurts, but with Erinn's and Dylan's love, I can still get by... Hopefully I'll never lose that... but who knows what the future holds..... |
| MY MOM....... In 2006, Cancer robbed me of the BEST FRIEND I've ever had, My Mom. She was my inspiration, my biggest motivator, and best cheerleader. I miss her so much more than words can ever possibly express. I only recently realized just how deeply her loss has affected me. Can anyone's love and devotion ever come close to your Mother's love? I don't know, but I hope so. She was such a great lady! Mom, I really love you and miss you! |
